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Amanda Touch

[4/26/2012 10:30:42 PM] Amanda: Alex Mariano Alfaro. <3 . Happy mother fucking 1 week. LOLOLOL. Dear gosh. I’ll try not to have us be one of those corny ass fucking couples that are like, “HAPPY 1 MONTH AND 3 WEEKS! LUV U 4EVA.” I really don’t like those couples. Lol. But I’m being such a hypocrite writing this to you. Whatever. It does seem like we’ve been dating for longer so I have every rights to write this because I’ve known you longer than 1 week.

Although we’ve been only dating for a week I’m not ashamed to say that I am absolutely in love you with you. I’ve never had anyone put in the effort to try and be with me before. Not like you have. What surprises me is that you were still after me even when I was at a dark place telling you to leave me alone, telling you that I’m not interested, I don’t want a relationship, putting you in the friend zone everyday. In all honesty, if it were me in your position, I would have given up trying to be with you. But the fact that you’ve kept trying just makes you an even more better person than I am. But I’m not writing this to compare you to me. I just want you to know that since you could put in the effort to try and be with me, I’ll put in the effort to keep what you’ve been trying to get for months.

Although I may be 4 years younger than you, please don’t see or think or see me as anything near ignorant or immature when it comes to relationships. Love is love. 4 years younger or not. I’m not looking for a boyfriend. I’m looking for a husband. The thing is, if I can’t see myself married to you or being with you in the future, then I don’t want to date you. But me actually decided to be your girlfriend is such a huge step in our “relationship.” It means I could see myself married and happy with you.

Goodness, I hope speaking about getting married and everything doesn’t chase you away. I like talking about those kinds of stuff.

Alex, I won’t be happy all of the time. Please don’t think it’s your fault if I’m ever crying or if I’m depressed out of the blues. That’s just the kind of person I am. But even if it’s not your fault, please don’t leave me alone. I’ve come to a realization that your presence and constant reminder that you’re always here for me is the only thing that could make me smile when I’m feeling absolutely down.

My love grows for you every single day & I really cannot wait for the day I could finally show you how much I love you. A relationship with the most stubborn girl ever is going to contain a lot of arguments, crying ( on my side), & fighting. But I hope you can see past every single one of those situations we’re going to come though and just remember that in the end of the day, I love you and only you with all of my heart.